nothing...sometimes you just see nothing.

why do people forget people eventually?

starbuck's virgin

I was in line today at starbuck's
this guy and his family was in front of me
he lifts the front glass cover to the food section and attempts to grab for a stale breakfast sandwich unknowingly that it's a prop food
the woman behind the counter yells at him and points out his erroneous mistake
he gets to the front of the line
it's finally his turn to order
he orders a lemonade
then he attempts to order a decaf coffee completely confused what venti is
he takes another 5-10 min to order
finally getting his lemonade, sandwich and coffee.

i never thought i'd live the day to see in america let alone the world,
someone who's so lost as he was at STARBUCK'S!!!!

that was 20 min of my life amused and confused.

then it was my turn and they ran out of green tea AND corn syrup.
my turn to be lost.

it's been a while

once again, i am so bad at commitments.
i thought i could be committed to this blog, but obviously, i failed again.

BUT i'm willing to try again, just not daily. that's too much for me. =P

so today's thoughts...

i found myself missing him again lately. it's been so long and i'm in a whole other environment and situation, but still, i think about him a lot.
it's like i can never get away, which i know is what i need.
but the memory of him or people who's in both our lives pop up sporadically.

i can never really get far away enough from him, why?

when will this stop....when will it not affect me anymore?

plus...he's a loser with possibility though.

nice to everyone, but me. why? i don't think i'll ever get that question answered.