me, myself, and I.

I know I have problem with people very often in life. Many call me easily irritable. I agree. I don't despise them and wish bad upon people, but i do admit, i sometimes hate people . IN general, as a whole, well and sometimes individually. But it lasts only as long as that moment of irritation lasts. Anyways, I came to a realization through being in NY and constantly around so many different characters and individuals that I love them in the sense that I love watching and observing and taking it all in. But when it comes to actually talking to them, i can't. Love and acceptance isn't so easy anymore. I wish that I could just have a pass to obvserve. I can just sit in any situation, any crowd, not have to say a word and just watch. That people will just let me watch and take it all in. Noone will bother me, noone will talk to me, but i'll be there. In the middle of it all. They will still know i'm there, but they just let me be. And they'll respect me and love me, but no words are necessary.

I believe too often there are too many words. Just too much. Too many words loses my interest.